detached.

i can feel myself beginning to become more and more detached. normally this would creep me out but right now, it just feels right.

maybe what i need is to seriously go underground for christmas break and just take a break from the people i feel are causing too much turmoil in my life. we'll see.

SATC.

i really love satc.

LATE! Day 25.

Day 25 - Someone who fascinates you and why.

holden caulfield.

he's fascinating to me. he's immature and ridiculous and probably a huge douchebag who thinks he's really misunderstood. just when you write him off as just an angsty teen, he says something universally true and perfect. he says something off that it's taken in different context by different people and what another person thinks is bullshit might be a personal truth for you.

and he has a red plaid hunting hat and says things like "goddamn phonies". what's not to love?

LATE! Day 23 and 24.

Day 23 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.

the summer after i graduated high school. there was something really reassuring about graduating high school and waiting for fall so i could start a new phase. also, i really didn't have to do much to prepare for college in the sense of tests/books to read/etc. now i'm halfway through my sophomore year and i do not want to go into the real world :(

Day 24 - Something that makes you sad when you think about it.

i don't really think about sad things too often but sometimes, the td situation makes me sad. i feel bad about how we treated each other and how immature we both were. it ended fine though.

again.

i keep writing posts but instead of actually posting them, i just save them in my drafts.

maybe i'll just get a tumblr hahahaha fml.

thanks.

i'm thankful for my life. it wouldn't be anything without my family or friends. especially lately, i've been appreciating all the little things in my day to day life that make it just a little better. these things are probably lame/dumb but i like lists.

1. gatorade.
2. sunflowers. i bought some yesterday.
3. greeting cards.
4. cee-lo songs.
5. excess of ham.

Day 22.

- How have you changed in the past 2 years?

*some of these are really contradictory and i'm doing them to the soundtrack of "never forget you" by lupe fiasco ft. john legend hahaha.

i've become more open towards new people and new experiences. i've realized that there's no point in keeping people in my life i don't really like. also, there's no point in being around them when i don't want to be either. i might hate humanity a little bit more with each person i meet but i still have a lot of optimism towards people. i'm definitely more reckless than i was 2 years ago. i'm beginning to realize a lot of things about myself that completely deviate from who i was/thought i was 2 years ago.