Day 05

- A time you thought about ending your own life.

honestly, i've never seriously thought about ending my life in that way. "that way" being committing suicide. of course i've had those angst filled teen moments where i'd wallow in self pity and think about how sorry everyone would be if i was gone. those moments were over (reflectively) insignificant things and they were fleeting.

however, i've thought about leaving my life behind and taking on a whole new identity before. obviously, this new identity would be thrilling and exciting in ways that my real life is not. this new identity always involved scenic moments in other countries (italy, france, australia) and always with a hot piece of ass by my side. the TD fiasco made me want to run away more than anything.

but the TD fiasco, like any angst filled moment i have, was fleeting. so is my desire to run away to a far off land and assume a new identity. what's so great about a new identity anyways? i like being chi vu even though my name is often mispronounced. i like my family and my friends. i like making shitty puns on my name. what was this post supposed to be about?

how fitting.

ass.

i keep seeing this damn picture everywhere! and i'm mesmerized, obviously. also, i kind of want to throw up hahaha. it's been such a fun halloween weekend.

current obsessions:

1. kate lanphear

for a while now, i'll read/creep anything relating to lanphear, the senior style director of elle. she has an online cult following because (reverting to my 8th grade self) she's just REALLY COOL. i joined her fb fan page.

2. frozen yogurt

i'm not sure what it is about frozen strawberry+banana yogurt topped with more strawberries and blueberries but i'm in love. i think it all started with the pinkberry theme song becky and i used to sing in our dorm room late at night. "sorry ice cream, i'm dreamin of a different dessert..."

3. blindingly bright nail polishes

what can i say? i love to unleash my inner flamboyance while simultaneously blinding passerbys and acquaintances.

4. my double chin

it's like a muffin top smuggled under my chin. i will refer to my DC as a muffin smuggler from now on. it is the cousin of the raisin smuggler but 20x more durrrty.

5. reinventions
of self, of surroundings. everything! but will i actually do any of it? meh. creepiest picture ever, btw.

boom! i got your virginity.

said i to my new blogspot.

after give and take 6 years of being in a dedicated blog relationship with xanga, i have decided to move on.

given that i was not the most attentive lover to my xanga, only posting every few weeks hurr and thurr, i will try to be a better internet addict and write/love/sum up my questionable summer days more often.

so i ran on the treadmill today. i don't ever exercise other than walking around a mall/to class/to the fridge so it was hell. pure hell. i would have started crying if i didn't sweat all the moisture out of my body from that half a mile.

now i'm thinking about people who look like prunes.