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i don't understand guys. like, not in the slightest. somebody needs to write a book about this. actually, i'm sure there are books about this shit but i mean, i hate greg bernhardt so nevermind.

i'm just going to eat my chipotle burrito and watch the lakers game. maybe watching kobe take a basketball flavored dump on the warriors will lighten my mood.

Day 01

- Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

there is no current relationship as i am habitually single. i think i've been in a relationship for a total of like a week and even that doesn't count. i was out at lunch with some vsa kidz a few days ago and the topic of relationships/boyfriends came up. during the course of this talk, it was said that "chi doesn't have time for a boyfriend" in response to why i don't have one. while i didn't find this offensive at all, i began to wonder if this is how people view me hahaha.

so i said something along the lines of "it's not that i don't have time, it's just that there isn't anyone" which i immediately regretted as soon as it verbal diarrhea-ed out of my mouth. but it's true, i'm of the mindset that if there was someone i'd want to be with, i'd make time for them.

i'm actually really used to single life because i'm not sure i know anything different. sometimes it kind of sucks but i'd rather feel eh sometimes about single status than WTF i hate this boy and stuck in a shitty relationship.

in conclusion, if i were to meet someone i liked and the idea of a relationship came up, i wouldn't say no. when/if it happens, it won't just be anyone simply for the purpose of being with someone though. LONGEST POST EVER SORRY. no one reads my blog anyways hahaha.

2.

it's been almost 2 weeks since i've written an entry! i'll give the cliche/vague excuse: "i've been busy."

but i have. between school/work/vsa, i barely have time to sit/complain/watch criminal minds.

also, i was talking to megan about the past and how i've learned things. pretty giving that whole "oh, yeah. it was a real shitty experience but i def learned from it" thing. i guess past mistakes can just be twisted into lessons later on. so that's what i did.

i guess what i'm really just wondering right now is the differences and boundary lines between certain things. i'm wondering if i know myself well enough to make a decision. i think i do.

then again, maybe i don't.

[i'm also considering finally getting a tattoo. but i've said this for about 3 years hahaha]

hey there, sweaty faced girl.

i am a constant victim of the shiny face striker. what is that? exactly what it sounds like. in situations where people perspire (say, walking to and from class through a GIANT parking lot), i tend to get shiny faced from sweat more than what i assume is normal.

every i.d. card picture i have, my forehead is reflecting the light from the flash. i am a living/walking/talking beacon for awkward sweaty faced kids.

*these following pictures are actually awkward themselves. though i am usually an asian girl, apparently i am black on my ids.

since i haven't gotten my parking sticker in the mail, i'm forced to put up a receipt every day. after walking across a giant bridge from the parking lot to campus (i estimate it's about a mile but my sweaty ass is probably exaggerating), i realized i forgot to put my sticker up! so i must trek back. then forth. i am then sweating buckets! i then sit by a cute boy while playing "We Didn't Start the Fire" by billy joel. he kept looking over and laughing and i assume it's about 1. my sweaty face or 2. he's trying to play cute with me in a strange fashion in which he is only missing a fan to play coy behind. it wasn't either of those, i just didn't realize my music was on so loud. 19 year old sweaty girl blasting billy joel? LOLZFEST.