Day 10

- Discuss your first love and first kiss.

i wouldn't say i've actually ever been in love and i have never actually kissed anyone so day 10 fucking sucks. hella irrelevant!

back in 7th/8th grade, i thought i was in love. maybe it was love for that age. i'm beginning to classify love by ages which is strange. you know, at the age of 13/14/15 or however old i was, you think that everything is love. reflecting back on it, it definitely was not love compared to what i think love is now. also, the fact that it was unrequited 7th/8th grade love makes it that much more irrational.

i thought at one point senior year that our 'relationship' could've eventually turned into love? but i was always really careful around that word. i still am now.

on to the topic of my first kiss, that shit hasn't happened yet. i realize that i'm 19! but surrusly, i feel like that situation hasn't really presented itself. also, part of me doesn't want to just randomly do that and feel like just another random girl on a list of random makeouts. maybe i'm taking this shit too seriously hahaha.